My therapist gave me a prompt
Prompted me to ask myself
how to take up space
or
more specifically
how do I take up space?
I can tell you the ways
I intend to
now
and
forever
On Saturday, I begin by watching them take up space
My daughter runs through crowds
at the sound of my voice
picking up speed
and leaping into my arms
She’s gathered enough energy and confidence to decide she’ll ride through the creek on her own
My son intuitively finds out
if he lifts his foot
right before the swings
he’ll reach distances
he never thought possible
giving me the most precious gift
of the opportunity
to watch his growth
in real time
On Sunday, I feel more spacey than spacious
packing up from a magical trip
rested and ready
for what lies ahead
On Monday, I promised to stand in the middle of the street
waving
and
smiling
because I am here
and
I will never be erased
On Tuesday, I filled up virtual spaces
with ideas
as big as balloons
There was a time
when I was too scared to own
my gentle leadership
but now
it fills me up to know I am
worthy of being listened to
On Wednesday, the space between
what’s wrong
and
what’s right
becomes
crystal
clear
Today, I make a mental note
to tell my therapist
that I am taking up space
previously not held for me
in nuanced ways
physical,
others mental, spiritual
and
I’ve never been more sure
of the space I deserve
as I am in this moment
